100 Suns

This is a bit funny, my entry before this one is a vow. It's like i'm telling you how much I wanna be with you and everything. But yes, it's still a vow I will keep. That is, if you'd let me.

At this moment, I AM NOT CONFUSE..more like wondering. Musing for almost everything. I mean c'mon, you're seriously goin' to be mad at me for such lame reasons? Why is it so easy for you to tell me how worthless and insensitive I am just because I didn't text you for like 5 minutes?? Do you really think I'm doin' that on purpose? C'mon!, learn to rationalize even just for awhile.

Sometimes I also wonder, back when you were at APAC...damn, I must say you were definitely a hard-worker. Seriously! Always busy, always working. But swear I understand. The point I'm trying to say is when you were at work, dba may breaktime? And I didn't receive any text from you. I mean really. And then I found out why...and I'd rather not talk about it.

The things is, you can do everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. Be mad, not care, flirt, and of course mock. And while you're doin' that I just have to watch you and be devoured by grief and solitude.

I'm not whining. I'm just wondrin'.

Done.